Does it really matter? A lack of good restful sleep. It can cause a hypo-manic episode. It can also be a symptom of said episode. Either way, the two go hand in hand. So if I find myself not sleeping well, I check my mood. Am I getting ill again? If my mood seems out of whack, I look at my sleep pattern. The stupid thing is, it doesn't do anything for me to check these things. I am tired and hypo-manic. The only thing my knowing those facts means.... is that I know these facts. The knowledge doesn't alleviate the the lack of sleep or the mania. Time is the only thing that does that. Though, knowing I am 'Ill' again means I can tell people I am ill. Other people knowing I am sick, I think, helps them to forgive me. Forgive my behavior. Forgive my grouchiness. I don't think it really helps them to not be hurt by my actions, but at least they can blame my illness and not me. Well, a bit anyway.
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