Tuesday, May 29, 2012

I want to sleep.  It is all I want to do.  Sleep.  I wake in the morning, and want to go back to sleep.  I nap in the afternoon and after waking, can't wait for it to be bedtime again.  Am I really this tired?  Yes, but it is not a lack of sleep.  I want to sleep not because I am sleepy.  I want to sleep because I am tired of my life.  I want to sleep my way through it.  I want to be in a state blissfully unaware of the crap I have yet to figure out. (no, I am not suicidal)

What is wrong with Mr?  He FINALLY got checked out for his weird physical symptoms.  The tremors, the difficulty walking, the facial numbness and of course the two year long struggle with occasional E.D. Turns out the doctors couldn't find a physical reasoning behind the symptoms.  They tested his blood for every vitamin and mineral shortage or overage.  He was given a CT and an MRI, and a blood test for Myelin.  NOTHING was found to be out of the ordinary.  So now he is faced with how to deal with the fact that these symptoms are physiological.  If these symptoms are from Anxiety, how to manage them, without taking meds that will make him sleep so that he is incapacitated and unable to work.  The symptoms on their bad days make him unable to work.  Though they do seem to have settled down of late. We haven't spoken much about the decisions he needs to make.  What therapy to seek, if to seek any at all.  That should not be a surprise to anyone. 

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